Saving Up For My SpaceShip...

It's Been A Long Time.. A Long Time Coming.. But I Know.. A Change Gon' Come... If I should die… go ahead and cry. Be sad, mourn, be hurt. But only for a few moments at a time—no longer than that. I know this is a tough time for you, but I want you to rejoice and celebrate life. A life lived—mine. And a life living—yours. More than anything else, I was thankful for the opportunity to live.  To see, to breathe, to experience, to love, and everything else it encompasses. I loved and enjoyed life. Even through the tough times, I found joy in living. And I want you to live life to the fullest. Cliché, I admit. But do it!  The grave will be a home to us all, so before your time is up—LIVE! I’m grateful to have met some beautiful and special people in my lifetime. Thank you, Jaime, for holding me up during the hardest time in my life.  You were truly a blessing to me—in multiple ways. You made life beautiful… you made me better. I loved life so much, I made o...

Act Accordingly 1. Network. 2. Be kind to everyone, even though it may be tough. 3. Do your job and do it well. *#2 is crucial

"I woke up early on my born day..." And I cried this morning. Uncontrollably. I got out of bed and dropped to my knees. I began to reflect on my life thus far.. the good and the bad.. the happy and the sad.. all of it. And then it started- a constant flow of tears.. an outpouring of emotion. I was overcome with joy at this very moment. Tears of Joy. And it was all because of Life. I am so thankful and grateful for the opportunity to live. I am in love with life. I genuinely appreciate this chance to learn, to grow, and leave my mark on this world. This is the second time, (that I can remember anyway) that I have cried because I was happy. The first time was during the birth of my son. I was so happy that he came out with all his toes, fingers, and etc. Lol.. that the tears just began to run down my cheek. "You never know when it's your time to go..." The world is an amazing but crazy and random place. You never know what you will encou...

So.. I just recently started watching the most amazing show The Master of None which debuted on Netflix last year. My man Ira told me that it was a dope show worth checking out and his quick analysis turned out to be correct. This comedy drama is awesome, the writing is superb, and the casting is damn near perfect. I binged watched the entire first season yesterday. But the season finale left something with me, something heavy.  There is a scene where Dev Shah played by Aziz Ansari, is in a bookstore reading a book. And the viewer is somewhat in his head as listeners, like an aside or soliloquy, and we hear what he is reading as the scenes change. As I re-winded and listened to (about five times) the excerpt from the novel, "The Bell Jar" written by Sylvia Plath. I realized that this just might be the deepest and realest piece of literature that I have come across in my life's journey. I immediately ordered the book and found the quote online. Maybe it has som...

Time. The healer of all wounds and money’s equivalent...its existence and use truly is everything. Time is one of those things that  doesn't  have much value to you when you are a child. You know that you want to spend as much time as possible playing outside, beating the top score your favorite video game and the least amount of time doing homework, but that’s all that you were really concerned about when it comes to time. Come to think of it, it is similar to money in this aspect …did any of us have a true sense of money a child either? All we knew was that our parents had it and that it could be used to get stuff….candy, toys, sneakers and clothes that would make us look cool on the first day of school. Yes, time and money do have their similarities, which explains why they are so commonly brought up in the same conversations. We have all heard that time is money….but money will NEVER be time. It  wasn't  until recently that I truly realize...

As I listen to a John Coltrane and Duke Ellington record "In a Sentimental Mood" on repeat, I quickly realize how brash and brazen the title to this blog entry is. But fuck it- that's just how I'm feeling right now. This entry is about LOVE .. more specifically about someone's theory on love: "Falling in love is a choice and love is unmeasurable without death."                                                          - SJ And my thoughts about the subject.. Random Ramblings... So..  I do not agree with this theory but I do not disagree either. Love is a grey area to me. So I'll take a few moments to write down my thoughts about both... Love is what? Feelings and Emotions.. Falling in love is a choice. But a choice that can sometimes be made unbeknownst to a person. I know people sometimes say "You can't help w...

First. Just read a status saying- "Tough times make tough people.." They also make stressed people, depressed people, overworked people, apathetic people, and so on... I could go deeper but.. The way my blog is set up... Second. YOLO .. Though cliche'- the phrase 'You Only Live Once' is extremely true. I had a conversation with one of my good friends the other day and he reminded me of this fact:  The only thing certain is Life is Death .  And if you work legally- Taxes. Death & Taxes only things that are definite during your time here on earth. So why not be happy.. truly happy... Side note: I just put on Paramore's 'Ain't It Fun' "Ain't it fun.. living in the real world..." Have fun!!! Follow your dreams!!! If you're not having fun in every aspect of your life.. or if you don't have a real reason to smile: You have to change your situation now!  No point in being miserable and downtrodden in ...

When it doesn't feel RIGHT.. Go LEFT... Or be really different and go straight down the MIDDLE...